Anxiety blows

Hey ya'll!

~I'm...
- done with classes this week mostly, and now finals are coming up.
- feeling anxious, but not the kind that makes your tummy queasy.
- not sad, or emotional, just kinda blah with out all the depression.
-...God call me a hypocrite..looking foward to going home b/c it means I have no work to do for school.
- making pasta for dinner
- all alone in the room b/c Min has been busy all day and I wont see her again till 7, so I must destress some how.
- getting a lot of phone calls lately, like from zero to at least 2 calls a day. They are from men I dont want, or crazy people, but its a change.
- Not liking bootycalls..haven't ever really had one, but had an offer today, and like wtf..I'm a special enough person to be more than a bootycall..yeah I'm flattered, but what do people expect from me...like seriously...try and get to know me as a person(even though I typically am not interested in ppl who are intersted in me) but if I were to be you'd realize that I am a caring, wonderful individual that deserves respect and should not be seen as some one to use for your own personal pleasures b/c it's different for girls.
- Happy..weirdly enough, now that my hormones are settled, I am not unhappy, so I figure I must be happy.
- not going to Cowboys tonight..I think I've been too unsocial that going now and not going again for over a month will be like to extreme, so I'm just going to wait till next semester, maybe I will have a new friend to go with then.
- happy that Min won 2 nights at a hotel on I drive from the Link Auction last night...Party at the Quality inn!


Ok..enough with the I'm's...

I(ha ha) have no complaints really, so I guess this is going to be a dull entry:). Life is pretty decent and except for the stress I'm dealing with, college still rocks and I'm staying up here (after I go home for break). I think that next semester will be even better than this one b/c I will have another opportunity to make new friends and that is a great thing. I like want one friend I can go out with...its really not that much to ask, but life would be so much easier if Emmy were here, I know it is the same way for her. It's hard to leave behind all your friends, not just your best friend. Shannon and Harmi are important to me too and I'd like to have them here with me as well.
When I go back things are going to be different still and will change even more rapidly than they are now. Dad is going to move the trailer up to n. Fla and look for land, and mom will join him at some point (hopefully for New years eve) b/c I want to throw a party of sorts, but we'll see. I've never had a New Years kiss..what's up with that lol. Kissing rocks..I'm suprised I dont have mono yet(knock on wood) but I miss the simple days of when just kissing was accepted and people didnt expect anything else from you; I got really lucky in that sense with the guys I was with in the Post-Tenn. days, but life changes the game on you, and it kinda sucks{it not me}. My ramblings may or may not make much sense, but as long as they are out, I am ok with that.

I dont think I've done my Thanksgiving update...here it goes

~Came home 12:30 Wednesday-hung with the parentals, and probably saw ppl(my memory blows)
~Thursday- saw Emmy and went riding out west in the truck to ride horses. came home, cooked a crappy pie, had dinner, and called it a day
~Friday-went to Burlington, got a suede jacket and tanks(memory fails me after that)
~Sat.- went to lunch with the girls, and the beach and then I think I saw the horse again...I know I rode Mama;s boy and he was bucking and what not, yeah it was Sat. then I saw your's mine and ours and it was good. went to Nina's and saw the ppl from there; good times :)

Sunday..left home, saw Emmy, got gas, picked up Min, hit the turnpike, stopped in Micco to see Air..got home around 630p. Saw rent.

I'm going to have pasta now.. smile ya'll!